Monthly Archives: September 2020

2020-09-27 · 20:54

Crash

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Sometimes I get days where I just crash. I think a part of it is that my body knows that during the week I have to keep going – work demands nothing less – but when it comes to a day off and the stuff I am doing is just for me – well I can crash – or zonk as I prefer to call it.

The time is now 2029 and that is basically what has been happening for the last hour/hour and a half. It always seems to happen at a time that is too early to go to bed – what is more annoying I had around nine hours of sleep last night! They say sleep is magical – clearly there is not enough magic in my life.

I am doing okay at the moment. It is the only way I can describe my life. There have been some changes at my place of work that I was very much against – but it wasn’t anywhere near as bad as I thought it would be – in fact the changes may prove to make things better – my brain just has a tendency to jump to red alert with the slightest provocation. One day I will lean that a new way of doing things isn’t bad. At least I hope I will.

Oh and this week I think I managed to wake up without an alarm each day – but I am still tired – something isn’t working is it? See you next week.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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2020-09-20 · 18:00

Adulthood

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It is an often repeated cliche that in adulthood our rewards to ourselves are our punishments as children. I would hazard a guess that every child has said something of this sort:

“When I grow up I am going to eat fries everyday and stay up all night!”

Then you become a grown up and what do you want? A healthy dinner and an early night. I fail on both accounts!

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I live within a literal stone’s throw from a kebab place, well maybe not me throwing since I have the athleticism of a dead weasel – certainly you wouldn’t need a trebuchet – maybe one of those dog ball things. Anyway getting that kind of food is very easy – and that is not even counting getting food delivered. Even when I cook I don’t tend to cook the food that is best for me.

And when it comes to going to bed on time… well that is bad too…

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I never go to bed at a good time. Most nights I get six hours of sleep. This morning (Saturday) I have had coffee as I am feeling so tired. When I went to bed last night there was 6 hours and 59 minutes till my alarm would beep – apparently it was not enough time!

It is funny though that to be healthy we’re supposed to spend a third of our lives unconscious! I tend to view sleep as necessary evil! Going to bed when my to-do list still has stuff on feels…

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Alright it is not entirely the to-do list! What tends to happen is that I get my stuff done until I feel too tired – then I meander around on line until I end up going to bed too late!

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Of course sometimes the human body doesn’t know what it wants. On these days of six hours of sleep it is clear it is not enough – but then when I don’t have an alarm set I still tend to wake up after that amount of time! As happened today. (It is now Sunday.)

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The key is self discipline, well duh, and being able to switch off and unplug. Which is always a hard thing to do. I think that living alone makes it harder. If you are sitting with a partner or housemate and both yawning one of you might suggest it is time for sleep. However sitting alone at the computer it is all too easy just to watch one more video…

I think too that there is something in the silence that is scary – which is odd because I also feel overwhelmed on the phone all day. So that is my challenge to try and switch off – I do not have high hopes. See you next week.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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2020-09-13 · 19:15

A Bat is not a Rodent

Taxonomic nomenclature can be an interesting topic. I always assumed that a bat was was a rodent. After all they are small fury creatures and, aside from the wings, they do look kind of like mice. Now that I have started this blog post with that assertion I feel a bit silly making it in the first place but this is the one I am going with.

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In one of my myriad of ideas, that may not pan out, was of a Rodent Federation. All these species are there and they perform various functions. Phillip Pullman had armoured bears – I want armoured Capybara!

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The idea started life with a young woman discovering her pet guinea pig can talk. The guinea pig becomes her go between to a magical world. This was an idea that came to me when I was…younger. I say it that way because I honestly don’t remember how young.

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If I ever finish that novel the guinea pig, Lenonn, will no longer feature – and yes he was named after a rather minor Babylon 5 character! That plot point didn’t really work for me. That sentence would be far more convincing if the novel in question was done – but no it is caught up in endless redrafting.

Nevertheless with writing very little is wasted. Ideas that can’t be used in one place can be slotted into another – and when researching you can find that the assumption you though you knew was wrong – so no bats are not rodents – the next question is what distinguishes a rodent from other mammals?

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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2020-09-06 · 18:33

Draft

There are some draft blog posts here that may never see the light of day. They are ideas that might never pan out. That is a consequence of writing.

In the past a discarded draft might be a piece of paper tossed on the fire. Now it is on the computer for ever!

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I was going to tell you about a strange thing that happened to me this week – and then I wasn’t sure if I should tell you – or if I did what words to use. Maybe I will just say the tantalising headline: I was accused of cheating by a woman I wasn’t dating. That’s a new kind of weird!

Drafts are a part of the writing life and it can get so confusing. Sometimes I know I have written a particular part of the story but I don’t remember which draft it is in – and finding it takes longer than a simple rewrite would!

And in the age of the internet there is always the distraction of the phone. My phone is in front of me now. I keep checking it even though I know I don’t need to check it that often but I do. Turning off the tech is hard – we are always afraid of missing something – even if it will be missed only for a moment.

Is the lonely silence the reason for checking? I live alone and at the back of a house. I can’t even hear the road at the moment. So does the checking of messages make us feel less lonely? That could be it.

I have sometimes imagined that if I were to have a relationship my phone would be off – if the most important person is with you then who else do you need to talk to?

Now if you’ll excuse me I am going to spend money on a takeaway – even though I had pizza Friday night!

I will cook one of these days…honest.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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