Monthly Archives: August 2020

Beginning

It is 0611 on Monday as I begin this post. Today is my day off but I woke up at 0500 and decided to just wake up. That is perhaps weird of me but I very rarely like the idea of having a lie in.

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Monday is often seen as the beginning of the week, in my head it is the beginning of the week – my place of work says otherwise! As such it can feel like new possibilities can start. I can throw off the mistakes and the bad feelings of last week and begin again.

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On my yesterday, and hopefully not on your yesterday, I had a takeaway (again) it was delicious but that isn’t the point. The point is that there is plenty of food in my fridge so why then would I eat out?

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Well it is always more exciting isn’t it? Maybe I am just lazy – or perhaps after I had cleaned the kitchen I didn’t feel like messing it up again!

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Ostensibly I am supposed to be dieting. That is obviously not working out – I am so frequently over my calories – why is it that the nicest foods are also the most unhealthy?

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It is probably evolution’s fault isn’t it!

I eat sometimes because of tumultuous emotions. Unfortunately eating poorly makes me bigger, which makes me unhappy, which means I eat more – you can see the problem.

I think that bad feelings do have a way of fuelling themselves.

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It is now (checking phone) Wednesday and I have about fifteen minutes before I should think about stopping doing stuff and getting ready for work! So I suppose I should come to the point.

Monday being the beginning of the week means, in the eyes of many, it is a good time to start a new thing. Oh course something new can start any day but human nature would suggest that Thursday, for example, would be an odd day for the start – I think of Thursday’s like Arthur Dent does.

The new thing I have begun is writing everyday – which is an ironic thing to say as I didn’t know that at 0611 when I started writing. Let me explain…

It is now Saturday. This post has obviously been written in little chunks but hopefully I will be able to wrestle it into some sort of order where was I? Ah yes writing…

Writing is very important to me. However I am not completely sold on the idea of calling it fun. I know I would greatly miss it if I didn’t do it – actually scratch that I cannot imagine not doing it – but it still has a vague ‘work’ feel to it.

Sometimes I don’t get around to it in a day. I get other stuff done instead, like housework, but the new plan is simple write first. Well almost first since my computer, Majal, takes a bit of time to boot so I have to at least wait for that.

My parents made me realise how important the slow build is. 500 words a day is all that is needed – I was wanting to do more and ended up doing less – little and often is the way of the future and I should have known that – and now I do.

And then it was Sunday….

Unfortunately I am less good at the ‘little’ part of that when it comes to food. Food is always tempting… he said as he grabbed a second bar of chocolate…oh well.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Order

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In the television series Babylon 5 the major conflict is between order and chaos. I think that describes me to a tee – although I don’t blow up planets when things aren’t working out – not until the death ray is completed anyway.

If I am disordered I don’t know what I need to do. If I am too ordered there is little room for life.

Order has two meanings for me. The first is being controlled – having homes for everything and trying to make the place look like something other than a pigsty. Most people, I would imagine, still have a draw of chaos – I am just trying not to have a flat of chaos.

The other type of order is the order in which we do things. For example when getting home from work what is the first thing you do?

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Do you make dinner first? Do you do some house work? Do you get on with your current project?

That project could be anything from working on a novel, practising the theremin, reading a book (not really a project but let’s go with it), knitting a scarf, painting the spare room or literally anything else in someway creative.

Odds are when you get home from work you are tired – so food might be in order – on the other hand if you get stuff done first then maybe dinner will taste all the nicer knowing that the evening is yours!

I wish I could sit here and give you a one size fits all solution. I want to tell you a way to be a productivity master!

There is no such animal.

I know, deep in my brain, that all we can do is our best. Unfortunately that doesn’t help me to say well done (to myself) and try to reassure myself I have done enough. I am never that kind to myself.

I am writing this at 1752 and I am yawing – since it is my day off I could stop doing stuff now and relax but that isn’t going to happen.

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This whole thing of organisation is very well trodden ground on this blog. My head is in a spin always trying to be better. I don’t know that I will ever find that way.

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I went to the bad place yesterday. I ordered fish and chips – despite the fact that I wasn’t all that hungry and I had already used my calories. And I don’t know what annoys me more – the fact that I did it or the fact that it helped and I felt better after some comfort food. In any event I have to make sure that that doesn’t become a regular thing. The next question is what is tonight’s dinner going to be?

I hope you are all doing well. If you are troubled with hard emotions I wish you all the best with the battle! See you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Birthday

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Apparently I have started a new tradition here of one word titles. I rather like the simplicity of them. It also prevents me from having to be creative!

It is my brother’s birthday – or at least it is the day we are celebrating! We are going out for a meal at a place not yet confirmed and eating in a way not yet confirmed.

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Well we’re not going to be batting food at each other and catching it like seals! There will be a table and probably cutlery – but with social distancing rules we can’t just go to a restaurant like normal.

So, yes, my brother is another year older – and in about a month so will I be – now there is a scary thought!

Just a short one today. It is 1003 for me and I need to leave in 25 minutes so I better get going. See you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Impatient

A stock image of a close up of a bike wheal.
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Now that I live in a ground floor flat I can have a bike again. I have missed having a bike. It is so convenient to be able to have a faster way of getting around than walking. I wanted to buy from an actual shop – but I ended up ordering one from the internet… now why is that?

Well I have already spoiled it in the title haven’t I? I wanted a bike right away and the shops I went to were telling me it was going to be a couple of weeks – from the internet it was going to be three days – I believe it was actually two.

We often see the idea of supporting smaller businesses instead of the big ones. However there is a reason the big ones are big. They can do things more swiftly.

Picture: A blue bike resting on a stand.
Now it needs a name…

This is not a knock against small shops. On the contrary I like the idea of having local places – a shop or restaurant only exists in one place. However there are times when we need (or want) something now!

The bike I bought is by no means the dream bike. I like it though and for the price if it lasts for a year it will have been worth it.

The same bike in its folded state.
Look at the trick it can do…

The dream bike, at least at time of writing, would be a Brompton. It too is a folding bike but at five times the price – but hopefully at five times the quality. Saving for such a bike would take a very long time. For now though this is my bike and it will certainly do the job of being my commuting vehicle.

I hope you are all well and I will see you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Thoughts

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I spend a lot of time overthinking. This is a rather exhausting and futile experience. Sometimes I even worry about things that have reached their conclusion! That is a special kind of stupid!

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The other day a thought occurred to me…I was worried about missing my flight home…from a trip I took in March! I am home and in my normal life I never go more than a few kilometres from home – and yet here was the thought. Why?

It got me thinking do other people think this way? I have heard stories of people waking up from a dream about a looming homework deadline. They are worried for a few moments and then…. they realise they are 32, the deadline was nearly twenty years ago and they handed it in on time anyway!

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The funny thing about the mind is that we each only have our own. As such when we conceptualise an idea we don’t know if that is a common way of looking at the world or not. And if our thoughts are more on the unique side it may be difficult for others to understand.

I, for example, don’t like phones. I’m fine with calling a family member but when it comes to a company I worry. I worry about not having all necessary information to hand, being misunderstood, or not being able to say no to an offer of extended warranty!

Then again, as I said above, I worry about all manner of silliness. I sometimes worry if I am, in general, liked.

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This is not a rock I want to look under. We all know people who we just don’t like very much. We are probably that person for someone too. I know what some of my bad qualities are and I am not sure how to deal with them and I know I don’t want to talk about them.

We can’t read other people’s minds (thankfully) all we can do is accept when someone tells us something is difficult for them. Of course telling someone else about our own difficulties is another matter entirely.

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One of my idiosyncrasies is I don’t like odd angles. Not to excess, thankfully, but if I was playing a board game I would want the game board to be parallel to the table and not at an angle – I am better than I was.

What are some of your idiosyncrasies?

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

I have a Patreon page. I hope you will consider supporting this blog: https://www.patreon.com/unstableorbit

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