Order and Chaos

Imposing your type of order…may prove difficult…

Odo (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine – The Search)

I like the idea of having order in my life. That idea never seems to come to fruition which is down to my complete in ability to organise. It is not for lack of trying.

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I impose order on myself with my to-do list. I have discussed this here many times. Having that helps me keep track of what I want. It is true that each day I get stuff done so in one respect it works. However my brain likes to be contrary and focus on what wasn’t done rather than what was.

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I use the pomodoro technique – or a bastardisation of said technique. Some of the tasks don’t take the traditional 25 minutes so I tend to set the timer for longer and move between tasks. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to wake up one day without a timer and without a to-do list. To me it would feel like climbing without a safety harness.

I’d be lost at sea. Adrift

James Bond (Tomorrow Never Dies)

Duolingo, Calm, and Headspace would all be done. They all keep a record of your streak and have a definitive end point. The end point for a book is the end of the novel and I can’t sit and read for 20 hours in one day.

Order verse chaos. Choose one.

The Shadows (Babylon 5: Into The Fire)

In Babylon 5 the characters had to find there way between the two extremes of order and chaos. That is the struggle I am trying to deal with and have been for so long. With order things get done but I am locked into the plan. With chaos things may still get done but I do not have that feeling at the end of the day that I have done enough. In actuality I don’t have that feeling anyway as my targets are too high.

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They say ‘shoot for the moon’ and that if you miss you will still be amongst the stars. It is a colourful metaphor and aiming high is certainly good advice but I am going to leave you with some wise words.

I’m no writer, but if I were, it seems to me that I’d want to poke my head up once in a while and take a look around… see what’s going on.

Captain Sisko (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine – The Visitor)

The sad thing is it isn’t even writing that is engrossing me.

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Assimilation

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A few days ago… well I say ‘a few days’ it might have been a week… actually more than a week… let me start again… I went out without my mobile!

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In today’s world this is a weird thing not to have this device with you. I would like to segue to another topic for a second if you’ll indulge me.

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Now and then, when I am out and about, a smoker will ask me if I have a lighter on me or a cigarette. I don’t smoke and I don’t often find the need to start a fire. What I find curious is that these people managed to forget either of these items. We often talk of technology as an addiction but it is not a literal one, at least not for most people, and yet I don’t think I have ever forgotten my phone. So I find it curious that someone with a literal addiction could forget. Then again it might not be a good comparison as I am someone who has to check his pockets, that the hob is off, that the fridge and freezer are shut, that the towel rack is off, and that the door is locked before leaving so I would be unlikely to miss anything.

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Leaving the phone at home deliberately was an interesting experience. I realised how often I reach for it. Even while walking I will look at it just while waiting for the lights to change. I missed and didn’t miss it all at once. One thing that was weird about was not having it to take notes when an idea occurred to me. I have no idea what that idea was. I heard someone say recently that we are cyborgs – we just don’t have the tech inside us.

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Comic con was in town this weekend. I went along on Saturday. I discovered something interesting. This crowd of people didn’t bother me not like other crowds. Think I know why… these are my people.

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In a place like comic con I am one of them. Normal might be too strong a word but I know that everyone in that place likes some element of fantasy or scifi. I’d also imagine that a lot of them have been teased or worse for those tastes. There is a sense of camaraderie.

In that place I can say I have a small fleet of model starships and not worry about a negative response. Were I able to start a conversation with a stranger the reaction would be positive. In that crowd I am still a short, overweight, long-haired man but everyone around me is fascinated by the same sorts of things that I am. For some reason I still care what others think even when I know they are probably not thinking them at all and when I ware my swagman hat then only thing that happens, and mostly it is nothing, is someone sings a few bars or the Indiana Jones theme!

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February

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February ended three days ago. It already feels to me like this year is going quickly. They say that that is a common phenomenon as you get older. It has to do with a year and how it relates to a percentage of life. Which is why as children those 24 days of December always felt so long.

I made a quiet resolution to myself at the beginning of the year to try and do something significant every month – or to be more accurate 12 somethings over the course of a year. So far I can’t say that I have done that. I have switched back to using a note book and really using it and I think that that is going to help. Apps are not so good, in my opinion with helping with productivity. Too many times I find I need a feature it just doesn’t have – pen and paper can do it all.

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I did have pizza the other day. That is, in a weird way, an achievement. You probably think I am clutching at straws, in a way I am, but let me tell you what I mean. I just wanted to go for a pizza and so I did. I made no attempt to justify it and I actually felt okay in a Pizza Hut alone.

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That said I probably need to justify it given that I only went to the gym three times last month. I have no idea what is a reasonable amount of times to go; both in terms of getting my money’s worth and for it to be effective. It is certainly more that three though.

As I write this it is 0548 on Friday. I have an early shift today but I like the quite of this time of the morning. It makes me feel relaxed and getting to do something before work is a nice feeling indeed.

I hope you have all had an amazing day. See you next time.

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Last Minute Blog Post is Last Minute.

I made it to the gym yesterday that is only the second time in February. If I could reliably go to the gym as often as I could reliably eat food that was bad for me I would look amazing – okay that i an exaggeration I still have a lot of limitations to work with.

I went to the gym at almost the last minute. In so far that I left about fifteen minutes before they closed. Yes. My gym actually closes. In this day and age that is unusual. To say I enjoy going to the gym would be an exaggeration but I did not not enjoy it. It was relatively quiet – which is more than I can say for the streets.

There was a rugby match on in Cardiff yesterday. My interest in rugby doesn’t extend beyond wanting to know if Wales won. So I had no idea that I was leaving my home at a time when I would encounter so many people – so I had to navigate around them.

I don’t like crowds. I have never liked them and when I am in a crowd situation I always feel uneasy. It might have something to do with the fact that the people in the crowd are often are often drunk and rowdy – or it might be that I am short and I feel like I am unnoticed and unimportant. That is why Napoleon did what he did – well actually not but history is written by the victors! I leaned that from a Klingon! Churchill may have said it too.

Some times on my weekend off I think of going out to a club. Which is crazy for me but I do. I think the idea comes from a desperate attempt to meet someone. The truth is though I have only enjoyed a club once. That was because of some special company. In all other instances I am an introvert – so meeting someone is a problem.

After the gym I had a kebab (which kind of renders the gym moot but let’s leave that alone) and ate it while watching The Man with the Golden Gun and washed down with some cider. And that was quite an enjoyable evening. Being alone is nice but I would like to be alone with someone. That may or may not be a contradiction.

I can’t say the same for today. I went to bed late and got up late. I was feeling discombobulated this morning. The only good thing about that is that I get to use the word discombobulated. It took me a while to get going and I had to tell my brain to shut up a few times.

I do have an almost Homer Simpson like relationship with my brain as he does with his. It is nearly 1500 now and I am sitting in Starbucks to type this. I am feeing a bit more myself. There is still plenty I want to do today so I better snap to it. I hope that you all have had a most amazing day.

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In Search of a Title

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It is funny to me that the first thing that I am expected to write for a blog post is the title. Shouldn’t a title come at the end? The beginning for the reader but the end for the writer. As I write this I have no idea where it is going. And that is scary and exciting all at the same time.

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While looking for inspiration I found this picture. Maybe it is just me but it feels like a good representation of my mind a lot of the time. The paralysis of indecision. What do I do? Which thing on my list?

A person’s life, their future, hinges on each of a thousand choices. Living is making choices!

Captain Picard (TNG: A Matter of Time)

On waking we have to decide if we are going to get out of bed or doze until we end up getting ready for work in a great rush! And when it comes to creativity we have to decide which project to work on.

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I remember seeing an interview with Christopher Judge where he talked about writing. He said that the only way he could get his scripts written was to lock himself in a room until it was done.

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And you can’t argue with the results. The SG-1 episode “The Warrior“, that Judge wrote, is an excellent story.

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I have spoken quite a bit about productivity on this blog. I have used paper, various apps, and a spreadsheet and all of them have flaws. In the final analysis maybe the thing to to is to just sit down and do it. Which is true but not very helpful.

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In other news I have just come to the end of a week off work. The flat is still a bit of a mess but I have got ride of a small army of plastic bags. So progress is being made. I hope that all your endeavours are going well.

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Time

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We all know the phrase: ‘Not enough hours in the day.’ I feel like that a lot of the time. And time management is one of the biggest challenges I think we face day-to-day.

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They also say: ‘When life gives you lemons…’ The lemons I have is not having written this before this morning. You are reading this sometime after 1800 hours on 2019-02-10 and I am writing it at 0947 on that day.

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I was once asked at a job interview what my greatest weakness was – and the answer to that question is being a slave to the plan. I am not good with spontaneity in any area. I will sometimes have this thought: ‘I really want to do some writing today but it hasn’t come up on the plan.’ So yes I will follow a plan even if it is proven to have holes in it.

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The plan does include randomisation. Every day I do house work, reading, meditation, Duolingo, and write Morning Pages. I change the order everyday because for some of those tasks there is no end.

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I can’t, for example, sit and finish an entire book in one sitting. So randomisation coupled with a timer is the only way I know to define an end. Sometimes I will read for half an hour and other times it might only be a few pages. Some days I will meditate for 13 minutes and others it might only be 3.

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Then there is the blog and a slew of other tasks I set myself. Some are quick and some take a long time. I have come to realise that I will never completely figure out managing my time. It is a challenge especially considering the weird place that is my brain with its contradictions and its fixation on patterns and doing things the established way – even if that way isn’t completely satisfactory. How do you deal with these challenges?

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The Plan Before the Plan

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Did you ever have a revision timetable in school? I think I did but that was a long time ago and I have trouble remembering what happened yesterday. The cliche surrounding such a timetable is that you spend so much time making them look pretty that there isn’t enough time left to revise!

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I actually did a lot of revision. So much that my parents had to actually tell me that I had done enough – and I think suggested I drink something. Maybe that is a false memory – like I said it was a long time ago.

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Today there are approximately 1,771,561 apps that help with time management and productivity. Sorry that’s how many Tribbles there were. Anyway there are a lot of apps and you can spend hours planning, finding that the app doesn’t quite do what you want, and planning some more. A wonderful endless cycle of getting absolutely nothing done!

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…or like me you can flip-flop between various apps and paper! I have realised that I will never be completely happy with any productivity set up. That is okay and yesterday (Thursday) I was actually productive! I finished one big tasks which was a great thing to get done and had the great moment of marking something done on Habitbull.

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Habitbull is a nice looking app with pretty colours all built in! I am back to using it again. The problem before was me. I try to do too much! So fingers crossed I have got it right. It is the start of a new month after all. The other app I am using is Any.do as that is more of a day-to-day thing rather than for longer term goals. What apps do you find useful?

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So it is February. I feel like I should review January. This month has been okay. I have had the usual roller coaster of emotions – feeling weird and smiley one day and really unhappy the next. I think though I am starting to get a handle on the clutter and I am feeling a bit more satisfied about life. See you next time!

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