Shaking

Thinking about what you can’t control only wastes energy and creates its own enemy.

Worf (Star Trek: The Next Generation – Coming Of Age

This is one of my favourite quotes and is a good way to think about life. I know it is good advice but that doesn’t mean I am easily able to follow it. In fact at the moment of writing (Friday) my mind is preoccupied with something I can’t control. I am concerned and feel as though I am shaking and, what is worse, it is for a very stupid reason.

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My phone is still being repaired. I handed it over on Sunday (2019-09-08) and it has yet to come back. I know it can be fixed and I have now acquired a case for it so that this will not happen again – yet I can’t stop thinking about wanting it back. I am using my old phone at the moment and now I am remembering why I got the new one in the first place. I also realised that the photos were not backed up. If they are lost it is actually not a big deal as there is nothing much their but it would still be a shame. I actually thought they backed up automatically. Which shows what little I know about technology.

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This has been a learning experience for me though. The most obvious is the necessity of having a phone case. The less obvious is the importance of disconnection from time to time.

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I realise the irony of that statement. I am writing this on my laptop, Majel, while listening to Emma Blackery on my Google Home, and my ipad has a timer running. However when I go out I am not checking Facebook all the time – I haven’t bothered to set it up on my other phone. And I don’t want to use the other apps much until the real phone is back in my hands. It shouldn’t be too much longer now.

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Worry seems to be a near constant companion for me. I am trying to get it under control but it is a constant enemy. Today it is the phone, when the phone is back it will be something else, and through it all there are the daily concerns – some are trivial and some less so – but most are things I can’t control.

I hope that you reading this are having a good day. I hope you find the time every day do do that thing that makes you smile

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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A Smashing Time

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Not the actual phone.

So on Thursday I smashed my phone’s screen. I tried to put it on the counter next to the sink, misjudged it, and it slammed on to the floor with a crack. Can I blame this one on my dispraxia? Maybe.

It is funny I see a lot of people with smashed phones and, until now, I have always wondered how they managed it. I have dropped my phone before and only ever ended up with a nick or two in the casing.

It didn’t even fall that far but ugh now I have a problem to deal with. That is the down side. On the plus side I have something to talk about here.

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When something like this happens my brain turns it into a bigger deal than it really is. It is annoying. It is not the end of the world. The phone still works, I have not lost any data, and I can always get another.

Poor Captain Sisko. I believe he was quite found of that ship.

Weyoun (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine – The Changing Faces of Evil)

It is a funny thing though. I have money set aside for just such an eventuality. It is a fund for the future, for emergencies and for accidents – and yet it still feels like a big deal. Why is that?

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It might be because even if it is affordable it is still money that I shouldn’t need to be spending. It could have been avoided by acquiring a case. So why no case? I never got around to it. There is no other explanation and have never felt the need. (Also stuff I don’t put on my to-do list doesn’t tend to get done.) Now I know better. So today I will see how much it will cost to replace the screen and maybe I’ll need to get a new phone. I am more glad than ever that I did not go for the iphone back in may. Although had I gone for such an overpriced phone I would have been more likely to get a case. Funny that.

With this action I have embraced what humans are very good at… only dealing with a problem after the problem. Titanic didn’t have enough life boats, it sank, ships that followed did have enough. (At least I hope they did.) For a more up to date example fossil fuels have been known to be an issue for a long time and only now, at the crisis point, is stuff starting to happen.

So from now all my phones will have cases. And perhaps yours should too.

Here endeth the lesson.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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I’ve Got a Bad Feeling About This…

Does anyone else see a worrying parallel here?

Today I am going to talk about politics. Which is about as clever an idea as calling Worf a coward.

…a really bad idea.

For the last three years, yes that is right, there has been almost nothing in the news but brexit and now we are on the cusp of it finally happening and the UK is incredibly divided on the subject. Some people believe that the action of brexit will lead us right over a cliff.

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Before I say my bit I want to say two things. Firstly I know nothing I have only my opinion and a gut instinct. Secondly I grew up on Star Trek and I am forced to wonder if seeing the exploits of the United Federation of Planets makes me want the UK to be part of some great alliance.

Too many videos? This will not be the last!

I voted to remain in the EU as I believed that was the best thing for the UK. I have not changed in that belief. The thing is I believed it and had little in the way of facts to back that up. It is my opinion that this was true of a lot of people no matter which side of the debate they fell on. The reason to have politicians is so that they can make the decision we would have made if we had time to look at all the details of an issue. A referendum was a mistake from the start – and I am not just saying that because my side lost. I don’t believe either side was completely sure what they were voting for. One thing is certain there was no plan for if they won.

Too much?

Maybe that clip is over the top, no pun intended, but I am going next. (And it is really only here because Baldrick had a plan!) Brexit has me deeply concerned. There seems to be an undertone of prejudice in the UK now and even some Britons who live abroad want to see a decrease in immigration and seem incapable of seeing that they themselves are immigrants. A very dear friend of mine left the UK recently and I think that was, at least in part, because she didn’t feel welcome here any longer.

Have we become so… fearful, have we become so cowardly, that we must extinguish a man because he carries the blood of a current enemy?

Captain Picard (Star Trek: The Next Generation – The Drumhead)

I have seen signs up in shop windows and at work that offer meetings and advice to EU citizens after Brexit. It makes me sad that we are facing the idea that people may be removed from the country for no other reason than there national identity. Also, and I debated putting this in, it feels like the small shadow of much worse things that have happened in the past. That maybe hyperbole but there it is.

I am not completely naive I understand the need for control of boarders. However the point that seems to always be missed is that it works both ways – a British person has just as much right to live in an EU country as they do to live here. That reciprocity makes it work and I don’t see any issue with it – none at all. I would love to see a world without boarders where the country you are from only has relevance at a sporting event or during Eurovision but beyond that has little relevance. Not an idea I expect to happen – I like the thought though.

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Boris Johnson has prorogued parliament which sounds like a circumvention of democracy to me. Like I said though I know nothing. I only know one thing all of this has me worried. I will leave you with some words of wisdom.

…each voice enriches us and ennobles us, and each voice lost diminishes us.

John Sheridan (Reading G’Kar’s Words) (Babylon 5: Wheel of Fire)

…we must be kind to one another.

G’Kar (Babyon 5: Wheel of Fire)

I hope that the predictions of doom fail to materialise but I am concerned about the future. I hope that you reading this are well, happy, and most of all safe. See you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.


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The Broken Things

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Recently I spoke of having a massive sort out of my flat. Along the way I found things that had been missing and got rid of a lot of things too. I also found this:

It’s dead, Jim.

The other nacelle was lost a very long time ago. I actually have no idea when or where. This little ship nearly ended up in the bin about two years ago when I had a sort out but I fished it out. I do not know why. It is broken and I now have its bigger brother which is a far more detailed model. Yet this Micromachine sticks around – I don’t seem to want to part with it.

We’re one big happy fleet.

Khan (Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan)

I don’t even have a stand to display it properly. I could carry it off as a battle damaged version. The annoying thing is that in the film it lost the starboard nacelle! There are always going to be broken things though and it is, sometimes, difficult to know what to do with them.

But no more than a broken heirloom.

Boromir (The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring)

There are also the broken relationships. The people who cut themselves off and we are sometimes left wondering what it was we said that was so bad. In the end we can only reach out a hand so many times before we have to admit that we will never speak to that person again. And that is a hard realisation to make and I am so close to the point of acceptance – it is a hard thing indeed. Perhaps that is why I cling to this little broken thing. For as little sense as that makes.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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Order vs. Chaos

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In the TV show Babylon 5 we see the conflict between the Vorlons and the Shadows. It is an ideological conflict between order and chaos. It has been pointed out to me that I seem to have qualities of both of those extremes.

“It’s like knocking over an ant-hill. Every new generation gets stronger, the ant-hill gets redesigned, made better.”

Mr Morden (Babylon 5: Z’ha’dum)

I control my life through lists and timers and so I have order. I also have order to the exclusion of common sense. I frequently have a chaotic flat because this order has lead to being tied to my list. I might need to do some laundry but that might not have come up on the to-do list for today.

“The Vorlons are like your parents, I suppose. They want you to play nice, clean your room, do it by the rules. I guess you could call them Lords of Order.”

Justin (Babylon 5: Z’ha;dum)

Currently my flat is in perfect order because I had help with it. My parents were here today (Thursday) helping me to sort out nearly 32 years worth of collected rubbish. I must admit to some trepidation before we started both because of not having control and the feeling that I should not need help.

Sometimes the most adult thing you can do is ask for help.

Rupert Giles (Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Grave)

The plan now is to find the right balance. I think we all need a little chaos in our lives, perhaps I should say spontaneity, but I think we need order too. I have struggled with this for a very long time. I feel so much better about my flat now than I did before. The trick will be keeping it in order, getting other areas of my life in order, while also allowing time for occasional unpredictably.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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Becoming Superman

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“No, not gone. Now we make our own magic. Now we create our own legends. Now we build the future. Now we stop–“

“–being afraid of shadows.”

Delenn and Sheridan (Babylon 5: Into the Fire)

I like to read. I usually read about 30 books a year but I rarely talk about them here. When I say read I am including audio books and maybe that is fudging the data somewhat. Then again I think my brother includes the children’s books he reads to his son. Given that I am 8 books behind schedule for my 39 book target maybe that is something I need to do – although I don’t have children so it might be a bit odd.

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I have recently finished Becoming Superman by J. Michael Straczynski. It is his autobiography and it is amazing. I listened to the audio book while walking to work and I must look like a complete imbecile as parts of it are literally laugh out loud funny. Although maybe that is just because I am a writer – unknown and unpublished but still a writer. To me though some passages were most amusing.

I will not sleep, eat, drink, nothing! The words and I will be locked in mortal combat until one of us surrenders

G’Kar (Babylon 5: No Compromises)

Becoming Superman tells the whole story of JMS’s life. It talks about his abusive upbringing and goes on to his career as a writer across many areas of creativity. He was had an amazing career and the volume of scripts he has written is phenomenal. I find myself rather envious that he has been able to do that full time – even with the financial struggles that came with it.

Ask ten different scientists about the environment, population control, genetics and you’ll get ten different answers, but there’s one thing every scientist on the planet agrees on. Whether it happens in a hundred years or a thousand years or a million years, eventually our Sun will grow cold and go out. When that happens, it won’t just take us. It’ll take Marilyn Monroe and Lao-Tzu and Einstein and Morobuto and Buddy Holly and Aristophenes .. and all of this .. all of this was for nothing unless we go to the stars.”

Commander Sinclair (Babylon 5: Infection)

JMS is a man of incredible integrity – on more than one occasion he left working on a TV show because he refused to adjust it to what, in his mind, would be a detriment to the work and to the characters. He also kept a promise made to his wife even after they divorced. A promise that she would never have to work in a closed in office if that wasn’t what she wanted. It was wonderful to reed about a divorced couple that still cares about each other after the end of a relationship. The common wisdom of the world would suggest that that is impossible but it is not.

It doesn’t matter if you stand completely alone. Fight for what you believe.

Captain Sheridan (Babylon 5: Objects at Rest)

I have used quotes from Babylon 5 in this review for three reasons. Firstly it is what I know JMS from and it is a work I very much admire, secondly I don’t have a hard copy of the book, and thirdly he puts his feelings in to the mouths of his characters. He describes this idea in episode commentaries of how his character creation can be based around a particular trait of his.

The quote above is very important and it is echoed in Becoming Superman. It is the idea that a writer, or any sort of artist, well have their naysayers. These are the people who say ‘Get a real job’ or ‘You’ll never make money doing this.’ While tenacity and dedication are no guarantee of success the important thing is to keep going. To try every day to make a step towards your goal. As the old saying goes: ‘A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.’ And a novel of 100,000 words begins with a single word. Even a 500 words a day will get you a first draft in less than a yeah. So keep going and fight to achieve your goals. That is what I take from Becoming Superman. It is a book about the struggles of life and what is important. It is quite simply an excellent read.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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It is Time For Plan…

We have a plan B?”
No … but it’s time for one

Carter and O’Neill (Stargate SG-1: Orpheus)

I am far beyond plan B when it comes to productivity. I actually have no idea what letter of the alphabet I am up to in my planing. I have used several different apps, notebooks, and other assorted methods that I seem to have forgotten as it is 0630 when I write this and I have been up since 0400. There may not have been other methods but writing rules say that examples come in threes!

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Do you remember being in school and having a revision timetable? The cliche is that you spend so much time making a pretty timetable that there is no time left to actually study.

I couldn’t find a clip of Rimmer taking his exam so this is always good for a laugh.

It is a new day now. I wrote up to the last paragraph a few days ago – and started today with this video. In those few days I have not come any closer to a plan. I have at least defined the problem. What I want to do in a week would take more time than actually exits in a week! (That is when you consider having to fit it in around a full time job.)

This is no time to argue about time. We don’t have the time!

Troi (Star Trek: First Contact)

Releasing this issue is the first step. I have no idea what the last step is. Now if you’ll excuse me I am going to get to the next item on my ridiculous list of things to do. I think I almost miss boredom.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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