Impatient

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Now that I live in a ground floor flat I can have a bike again. I have missed having a bike. It is so convenient to be able to have a faster way of getting around than walking. I wanted to buy from an actual shop – but I ended up ordering one from the internet… now why is that?

Well I have already spoiled it in the title haven’t I? I wanted a bike right away and the shops I went to were telling me it was going to be a couple of weeks – from the internet it was going to be three days – I believe it was actually two.

We often see the idea of supporting smaller businesses instead of the big ones. However there is a reason the big ones are big. They can do things more swiftly.

Picture: A blue bike resting on a stand.
Now it needs a name…

This is not a knock against small shops. On the contrary I like the idea of having local places – a shop or restaurant only exists in one place. However there are times when we need (or want) something now!

The bike I bought is by no means the dream bike. I like it though and for the price if it lasts for a year it will have been worth it.

The same bike in its folded state.
Look at the trick it can do…

The dream bike, at least at time of writing, would be a Brompton. It too is a folding bike but at five times the price – but hopefully at five times the quality. Saving for such a bike would take a very long time. For now though this is my bike and it will certainly do the job of being my commuting vehicle.

I hope you are all well and I will see you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Thoughts

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I spend a lot of time overthinking. This is a rather exhausting and futile experience. Sometimes I even worry about things that have reached their conclusion! That is a special kind of stupid!

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The other day a thought occurred to me…I was worried about missing my flight home…from a trip I took in March! I am home and in my normal life I never go more than a few kilometres from home – and yet here was the thought. Why?

It got me thinking do other people think this way? I have heard stories of people waking up from a dream about a looming homework deadline. They are worried for a few moments and then…. they realise they are 32, the deadline was nearly twenty years ago and they handed it in on time anyway!

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The funny thing about the mind is that we each only have our own. As such when we conceptualise an idea we don’t know if that is a common way of looking at the world or not. And if our thoughts are more on the unique side it may be difficult for others to understand.

I, for example, don’t like phones. I’m fine with calling a family member but when it comes to a company I worry. I worry about not having all necessary information to hand, being misunderstood, or not being able to say no to an offer of extended warranty!

Then again, as I said above, I worry about all manner of silliness. I sometimes worry if I am, in general, liked.

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This is not a rock I want to look under. We all know people who we just don’t like very much. We are probably that person for someone too. I know what some of my bad qualities are and I am not sure how to deal with them and I know I don’t want to talk about them.

We can’t read other people’s minds (thankfully) all we can do is accept when someone tells us something is difficult for them. Of course telling someone else about our own difficulties is another matter entirely.

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One of my idiosyncrasies is I don’t like odd angles. Not to excess, thankfully, but if I was playing a board game I would want the game board to be parallel to the table and not at an angle – I am better than I was.

What are some of your idiosyncrasies?

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The Corbomite Maneuver (TOS) Review

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The episode starts with the Enterprise encountering an unknown object – a spinning colourful cube that blocks their path. On the bridge, in addition Spock, Sulu, and Uhura, is Lieutenant Bailey. Bailey is shown to be very green and is less prepared to deal with the stresses of the unknown than the other characters. He provides an excellent counterpoint to the calmness displayed by the others.

Raising my voice back there doesn’t mean I was scared or couldn’t do my job. It means I happen to have a human thing called an adrenaline gland.

Hmm. It does sound most inconvenient, however. Have you considered having it removed?

Very funny.

You try to cross brains with Spock, he’ll cut you to pieces every time.

Bailey, Spock and Sulu. (Star Trek: The Original Series: The Corbomite Maneuver)

Spock is my favourite character from TOS and it is moments like this that are the reason why.

Kirk, who has been in sickbay for his physical, comes up to the bridge. The department heads report to Kirk. The cube doesn’t respond to attempts at communication and the crew can’t identify what its power source is or how it operates.

Bailey is in favour of simply firing on the cube. If it was the Borg that would be the right call but it is not that type of cube and Kirk wounderfully responds with.

I’ll keep that in mind, Mr. Bailey, when this becomes a democracy.

Kirk (Star Trek: The Original Series: The Corbomite Maneuver)

This is the first episode of the series that feels Star Treky (if I can use that word) they are encountering the unknown and it has no connection to Earth in any way. Technically Miri would be the same but that world was a duplicate of Earth – for some reason.

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We flash forward by eighteen hours. During this time the crew has been trying further analysis of the probe. Spock’s conclusion is that it is either a buoy or fly paper.

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Fly paper seems rather anachronistic, especially for Spock, but that is just nitpicking. The point is well taken though that they are being held in this place for some reason. Kirk decides it is time for action. Rather than opening fire, as Bailey assumes, he intends to pull away from it.

The Enterprise is unable to pull away and Kirk is forced to order the destruction of the cube.

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Kirk and McCoy share a drink, in the former’s quarters, while discussing the morale of the crew. Meanwhile Spock is leading battle drills as the crew was rather sluggish with responding to the threat of the cube.

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Yeoman Rand comes in with Kirk’s lunch, salad on McCoy’s orders, and Kirk expresses discontent at having a female Yeoman – which is odd considering we never see a male yeoman. For Star Trek’s frequent protestations of equality it does have a lot of problematic elements.

Kirk is soon summoned back to the bridge as the Enterprise comes into contact with the spherical Fesarius. First a cube and now a sphere – in hindsight it is hard not to think of the Borg isn’t it?

The Fesarius looks gorgeous in the remastering. They did an excellent job of updating the effects while maintaining the asphetics of the 1960s.

Reading goes of my scale, Captain. Must be a mile in diameter.

Spock (Star Trek: The Original Series: The Corbomite Maneuver)

A rather odd statement considering the Enterprise scans planets almost every week.

Everyone is mesmerised by the ship. So much so that Sulu has to operate Baliey’s console for him when Kirk orders reduced magnification.

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Kirk opens communications and the Enterprise receives a response from Commander Balok – accusing the crew of trespassing – and declaring the crew savage – this happens a lot in Star Trek!

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He also says that for this the ship will be destroyed – this happens a lot too – aliens in Trek are very judgemental.

McCoy comes up to the bridge and informs Kirk that the message was heard all over the ship. Kirk tries to reassure his crew – it doesn’t work on Bailey who loses it – if he ever had it.

Incidentally this is one of the only pictures that came up when I searched for crazy. So Bailey is relieved of duty.

Kirk tries again to explain the Enterprise’s actions, in destroying the probe, were simply for self preservation. Balok continues the countdown.

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Kirk hits on the idea of bluffing their adversary. He says that the Enterprise contains a substance called ‘corbomite’ and that if Balok makes good on his threat his ship too will be destroyed.

Baliey returns to the bridge and resumes his post – just in time for Sulu’s ten second countdown. Balok doesn’t fire.

Kirk’s bluff has worked, after a fashion, Balok asks for proof of the Corbomite device – which Kirk has to deny of course.

A small ship emerges from the Fesarius and begins towing the Enterprise. Now the First Federation plans to maroon the crew on one of their planets and destroy the Enterprise.

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Kirk gambles that the tractor beam must be a big strain on a ship so small. He give orders to pull away from the small ship. The plan works and the Enterprise breaks free of the small ship. Balock sends a distress signal that is too weak for the flag ship to have received – Kirk decides to render aid.

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This action is why I feel this episode is very Star Trek after all that has happened Kirk is still prepared to help out a potential enemy.

I would be remiss if I didn’t point out that this behaviour is also typical of the military as we know it. When the Bismark was sunk in World War 2 the survivors were rescued by the Royal Navy.

I have tried to find a specific clip of this to put here but have been unsuccessful. I am now starting to wonder if I imagined it! The clip was a news reel from the time. It talks about the rescue of the enemy sailors and says something about the public questioning why we would help enemies – and concludes with the 1940s equivalent of ‘That’s not how we roll in the Royal Navy’ – it is a concept I have heard before that once the ship is no longer a threat the crew should be rescued – they have served their country and that demands respect.

That was rather long winded way of saying something rather simple… Star Trek often talks about humans being better than today… but it seems to ignore the good qualities we have already and seems to exaggerate how bad we are now and how good they are.

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So Kirk leads a landing party over to the ship. On arrival they see a dummy – it is this that they have been communicating with. Then we meet the real Balok – he appears to be a child (Clint Howard was only 7 when he played the part) but presumably that is just a human perception of an alien.

Balok welcomes them and offers them a drink. He explains that this has all been a test to see how they react to threats and to someone in need. He asks for someone to stay with him for company and an exchange of information. Baliey volunteers for that and the episode ends with the landing party being taken on a tour of Balok’s ship.

This is the best episode of the series so far. It has many of the elements that make Trek the show it is. It is just a shame we never hear of the First Federation again. It makes me wonder what they were up to during the Dominion War and, in general, beyond this episode.

My only criticism is that we don’t get to find out more. It would have been nice to have trimmed down the testing portion of the story and spent a bit of time learning about Balok’s people. Still what we got is a most enjoyable episode.

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Adulthood

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When I was young I remember being excited for receiving a delivery. While still living at home I might order a new game, or some other fun thing. Getting home from school it was great to have the box to open and a new thing to play with – somehow that excitement remains even into the ordinary.

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Now that I am still in the slow, because it is me, process of getting my home sorted I have needed to buy stuff. This has included a microwave, a mop and bucket, some cleaning chemicals, some towels, and a toilet brush. All of these ordinary things, apart from the towels, I have ordered from Amazon and yet there is still a degree of excitement for the thing’s arrival. Why is that?

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I think it is simply that the acquisition of something is inherently special. I can’t say why that would be. Perhaps it has something to do with the impact we are having in the world – is there some sort of subconscious comparison to everyone else? Do we feel better about ourselves because our microwave is nicer? Could it be that us having more stuff shows we can afford more stuff so we are doing better? If that is the case it would be weird. I frequently feel that I have too much stuff – and want to get rid of stuff.

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The next thing I need is a frying pan. My old one doesn’t work with this hob – I put it on the heat and the oven just shrugged and turned off. I guess it must be an induction hob. Amazon have 2000 results for frying pans – so it may take some time! Isn’t choice an annoying thing sometimes!

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Home

I am now in my new home. I have gone from a tiny studio to a place with actual rooms and even a garden – so it feels so big!

The studio was starting to feel a little on the cramped side, maybe I just have too much stuff, so I wanted somewhere bigger. It is nice to have this extra space and more of a home feel rather than, as my father put it, a human storage box.

Living in a small space isn’t inherently bad of course but in order to make it work you have to be creative with the space. Doing this takes time, energy, money, and the freedom to be able to make alterations.

While my rent has increased it is worth it to come home to a nicer place. The previous place was a loft with only one window and thus could be quite dingy. Here I have lots of windows and airy space – a vast improvement.

I now have a proper kitchen with an actual oven and enough space for my pans – before they were shoved onto a trolley and would fall off if not arranged exactly correctly.

I can now have guests if I want to – in the last place it would have felt like we were all in my bedroom – and a weird bedroom as it had a microwave in it!

So, in conclusion, I finally have a reason for having a silly number of mugs!

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Coffee

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I am not a fan of coffee. I have heard many people talk of the wonderful aroma of the beverage but to me it doesn’t smell great. However I do keep coffee at home because some days I don’t get enough sleep, either because of my deep personal stupidity, or because of work commitments. When I do have coffee I have it with lots of milk and sugar – in order to make it palatable – Captain Janeway would be horrified.

Today (2020/07/06) I had a caramel latte, because I was feeling tired in the afternoon, and I was surprised I actually rather liked it – or at least I didn’t dislike it as much as I expected to.

It got me to thinking about taste and options on food and drink. There are some foods which we accept that some people like and some hate but there are also foods that we would find it very strange for someone not to like.

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I always find it odd when people don’t like peas. Not because peas are amazing but because I wouldn’t have thought there was enough to them to not like them. Then again I don’t like uncooked tomatoes. I also don’t like cucumber – but I will have it if part of a recipe. Cucumber with hoisin duck just works.

‘Hoisin’ is a word my spellchecker doesn’t know. It wanted to say ‘housing’ which is convenient as it allows me to clumsily segue into the other thing I want to talk about…

Tomorrow (2020-07-13) I am moving and I am, once again, realising how much stuff I have. Fortunately the new place isn’t far away so it won’t be too bad. When all is done I will have pizza – both as a thank you to my parents for helping me and because I will feel like I deserve it – even if my gut says it is a bad idea! Mention of pizza brings me right back to the top. I would find it strange if someone didn’t like that!

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Body

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My work week runs from Tuesday-Saturday this was a decision I made a little while back. (I’m not sure when. Time has lost all meaning this year) I made it to have more structure and so that I could always be able to guarantee being around for events such as family gatherings. It would save my parents the annoyance of working out if it was my week with a weekend off or not.

Having two days off together is a good way to reboot and to feel refreshed – at least that is the plan. What tends to happen though is that on a Sunday I tend to crash and crash hard.

This happens in the afternoon. I end up with no energy and need to try and take a nap. It is a frustrating for me as I like to be doing stuff and even though I have no energy it feels like a waste of a day off.

This is going to sound bad – but there have been times when being with family I have fallen asleep in the afternoon – pre-covid of course. My mum always says that if that happened then I must need the rest.

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I am rather slow on the uptake but I am dumbly starting to realise how much of a delicate balance the human body is. From sleep, to nutrition, to exercise it all contributes to how we feel day-to-day and I don’t think I am doing well in any of those catagries.

I now have a date for moving into my new place – a one bedroom flat as opposed to a studio flat. Once again I am pinning my hopes on this bringing about a change. This is a common mistake but maybe something will change.

One piece of advice I have seen repeated again and again is to switch off electrical devices an hour before bed. Will this be easier when I have a living room to leave them in?

I will have a proper sized freezer allowing for meal prep. Will this mean that I cook more and rely on simpler food less?

I will be able to have a bike again – so getting home from work will be twice as fast and it is less likely I will be tempted by food on the way home.

I will also have a back patio meaning I can get some air without having to go anywhere.

And I will be able to exercise at home without having to worry about the person living below me as it is a ground floor place.

It is my hope that all of these factors will contribute to better well being. I fear that may not be true.

I may have been too much for introspection here lately. Is that what a blog is for? My mind feels blocked lately like I am devoid of energy – and I need to come up with a fix for how I feel but I don’t know what that fix is.

The internet can be a wonderful place for finding things out but there is so much information it can be very confusing figuring out what is best for each individual – although no one would argue that more vegetables is a good thing – he said while thinking that dinner will probably be pizza.

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If I Could Write Poetry this Would be a Poem

The thoughts are swimming around in my head. They are lost and confused and I can’t even bring them to words. Both my hands are on this keyboard and as I type I do not know what will come next. As I type and you read we both know as much of what is to come as each other.

It is Sunday today which is my day off. I did go for a walk earlier but I am not going to meet my step target today. I feel tired. I always seem to be tired.

It must come from my choices of eating. I eat… poorly.

Every time I think of that word I think of the knight who says it in The Last Crusade.

I need to cut down on the bad foods. The bad foods are so nice. The best solution is to remove the temptation. Don’t even bring the chocolate into the house – you can’t eat what is not there to eat.

I don’t ever seem to stick to my calorie count. Rather than it being a way to eat less it is just showing me how badly I do eat.

I have not moved house yet. I am still waiting to hear about it. I want to move. Now that I have that possibility the house feels smaller with each passing day – not helped by the fact that I started to bag up some of my things.

I am clutching at straws here. I want to write words for you. The words that pop into my mind and just keep going till I have something. Anything.

Diet and lifestyle is such a balance. Food intake. What food. Exercise. Sleep. These things are all of great importance and are so easy to get wrong. What is right, and what is wrong, can change depending on the article and who has written it.

Today is not the best of days for me. It is not the worst either. I write for me today. I just want to get words out on a page. I want to say that I am feeling out of sorts and that I do not know why. I want to say that I am here – and for today that will have to be enough. In closing I want to share this with you – because music is wonderful.

What a beautiful Welsh song!

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Moving

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I am in the process of moving. Saying that I am counting my chickens (it is not all confirmed yet) but I wanted to get a head start so I am putting stuff in bags. Once again I am becoming aware just how much stuff I have accumulated and I am a bit annoyed at my past self.

…your living areas are bursting with useless junk. Then you die, your relatives sell everything, and start the cycle all over again.

Odo (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine: Q-Less)

None, or virtually none, of the accumulated stuff would be worth anything which makes getting rid of stuff a bit easier. I have books, CDs and DVDs and many of them will be able to go.

You might be wondering why I am keeping some of this stuff. I wonder the same thing sometimes. So why don’t I get rid of it all and rely on streaming services? One word: change.

Passion of the Nerd’s Videos are wonderful!

Buffy is the most extreme example of which I am aware. I am keeping my Buffy dvds because I don’t want to not have the best version of the show. The Friends DVDs have the full version – last time I looked on Netflix they were the shorter broadcast version.

This can also effect music, although less directly, owing to the various versions of the song – and often the same artist has many versions. This means having to give very specific instructions: Okay, Google. Play: Deep Space Nice Opening Credits season 4-7. For example.

That is not to say that all remastering is bad. I don’t own these but the remastered Star Trek: The Original Series is outstanding. They did an excellent job and managed to keep the spirit of the show. The episode The Doomsday Machine in particular looks amazing. To my eyes the special efforts blend well with the live action. It still has a 60s feel. The Blu-ray, I’m given to understand, has the option of playing the old or new version. This is the perfect compromise between old and new. Actually it is better than a compromise. A compromise means not getting all that you want – normally a fact of life – in this instance a thing not required.

I would be remiss if I didn’t mention Star Wars. Star Wars has been changed many times. Some changes make sense, such as a tidying up of the images and improving things like the Death Star explosion, but in other places unnecessary CGI has been added, and some scenes are worse off for them. To me the best example is Vader’s turn at the end of Jedi. The silence of it perfectly communicates what he is going through. We don’t need him to say anything. Now he says: ‘Nooo’.

At this juncture someone usual mentions that the film makers made it they can change it. And so they can – no argument. The problem is when a decision is taken that there is one true version. If Blu-rays were released of the original trilogy with just a bit of a clean up but otherwise untouched they would sell so well. You know they would. In closing I just want to say: ‘Han shot first!’

I also want to say that this post is the very definition of a first world problem. I know this. I know it is unimportant. Given the heaviness of the news recently I wanted something light for this week.

Places are coming out of lock down now. So I hope you are all doing well as we begin to get back to the new normal.

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Back to Reality

Today is Sunday and I am back to my normal life. I have just completed my first five days back at work. Things are starting to return to normal – well the new normal.

It was a strange week. I wasn’t doing my regular customer facing role as there are no customers to face. It was good to do something different and, without customers, focus and just get it done. It is the switching between tasks that I find hardest so it was nice to have the change.

Having to get up in the morning is the most noticeable change. I have never before had such a long period of not needing a wake time. The closest would be the summer holidays – but even then most of the time we were doing something.

During lock down my bedtime drifted further and further along. The latest it got was 0300 – which is an insane time to go to bed in my opinion. I have to really force myself to go to bed at a good time – if I don’t my bedtime will drift forward by a couple of hours each day. There was one day during lock down that I took a nap at around 1700!

I woke up this morning at 0430. I didn’t set an alarm I just woke up – so a little under six hours of sleep. I know though at that time of the morning I wouldn’t have been able to get back to sleep.

In an attempt to fix my sleep schedule I removed YouTube from my phone. I figured that without that distraction I would go to bed sooner. Did it work? Nope. Now I just watch on my iPad instead!

Perhaps I need to remove YouTube from that too.

Being in lock down has been quite eyeopening for me. It gave me a feel for what my life would be like if I didn’t have anywhere to be. In someways it was a struggle and in other ways it was amazing.

It would be nice to have the company of a dog – that might make walks more enjoyable – but in general I am okay. The walks I have been going on have basically just been a 10,000 (ish) circuit from my house and back. I pass the time with an audio book. It would be nice to have more places to go but at least I get little fireworks graphics on my pedometer.

I wish I could say that I have learned something invaluable to carry on with now that full time work has resumed – unfortunately that is not the case. I still have many projects and chores to do and am setting myself too much.

I hope that everyone that is reading this is happy and healthy. Thank you very much for reading and I will see you next time.

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