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Order and Chaos

Imposing your type of order…may prove difficult…

Odo (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine – The Search)

I like the idea of having order in my life. That idea never seems to come to fruition which is down to my complete in ability to organise. It is not for lack of trying.

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I impose order on myself with my to-do list. I have discussed this here many times. Having that helps me keep track of what I want. It is true that each day I get stuff done so in one respect it works. However my brain likes to be contrary and focus on what wasn’t done rather than what was.

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I use the pomodoro technique – or a bastardisation of said technique. Some of the tasks don’t take the traditional 25 minutes so I tend to set the timer for longer and move between tasks. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to wake up one day without a timer and without a to-do list. To me it would feel like climbing without a safety harness.

I’d be lost at sea. Adrift

James Bond (Tomorrow Never Dies)

Duolingo, Calm, and Headspace would all be done. They all keep a record of your streak and have a definitive end point. The end point for a book is the end of the novel and I can’t sit and read for 20 hours in one day.

Order verse chaos. Choose one.

The Shadows (Babylon 5: Into The Fire)

In Babylon 5 the characters had to find there way between the two extremes of order and chaos. That is the struggle I am trying to deal with and have been for so long. With order things get done but I am locked into the plan. With chaos things may still get done but I do not have that feeling at the end of the day that I have done enough. In actuality I don’t have that feeling anyway as my targets are too high.

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They say ‘shoot for the moon’ and that if you miss you will still be amongst the stars. It is a colourful metaphor and aiming high is certainly good advice but I am going to leave you with some wise words.

I’m no writer, but if I were, it seems to me that I’d want to poke my head up once in a while and take a look around… see what’s going on.

Captain Sisko (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine – The Visitor)

The sad thing is it isn’t even writing that is engrossing me.

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Assimilation

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A few days ago… well I say ‘a few days’ it might have been a week… actually more than a week… let me start again… I went out without my mobile!

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In today’s world this is a weird thing not to have this device with you. I would like to segue to another topic for a second if you’ll indulge me.

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Now and then, when I am out and about, a smoker will ask me if I have a lighter on me or a cigarette. I don’t smoke and I don’t often find the need to start a fire. What I find curious is that these people managed to forget either of these items. We often talk of technology as an addiction but it is not a literal one, at least not for most people, and yet I don’t think I have ever forgotten my phone. So I find it curious that someone with a literal addiction could forget. Then again it might not be a good comparison as I am someone who has to check his pockets, that the hob is off, that the fridge and freezer are shut, that the towel rack is off, and that the door is locked before leaving so I would be unlikely to miss anything.

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Leaving the phone at home deliberately was an interesting experience. I realised how often I reach for it. Even while walking I will look at it just while waiting for the lights to change. I missed and didn’t miss it all at once. One thing that was weird about was not having it to take notes when an idea occurred to me. I have no idea what that idea was. I heard someone say recently that we are cyborgs – we just don’t have the tech inside us.

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Comic con was in town this weekend. I went along on Saturday. I discovered something interesting. This crowd of people didn’t bother me not like other crowds. Think I know why… these are my people.

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In a place like comic con I am one of them. Normal might be too strong a word but I know that everyone in that place likes some element of fantasy or scifi. I’d also imagine that a lot of them have been teased or worse for those tastes. There is a sense of camaraderie.

In that place I can say I have a small fleet of model starships and not worry about a negative response. Were I able to start a conversation with a stranger the reaction would be positive. In that crowd I am still a short, overweight, long-haired man but everyone around me is fascinated by the same sorts of things that I am. For some reason I still care what others think even when I know they are probably not thinking them at all and when I ware my swagman hat then only thing that happens, and mostly it is nothing, is someone sings a few bars or the Indiana Jones theme!

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February

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February ended three days ago. It already feels to me like this year is going quickly. They say that that is a common phenomenon as you get older. It has to do with a year and how it relates to a percentage of life. Which is why as children those 24 days of December always felt so long.

I made a quiet resolution to myself at the beginning of the year to try and do something significant every month – or to be more accurate 12 somethings over the course of a year. So far I can’t say that I have done that. I have switched back to using a note book and really using it and I think that that is going to help. Apps are not so good, in my opinion with helping with productivity. Too many times I find I need a feature it just doesn’t have – pen and paper can do it all.

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I did have pizza the other day. That is, in a weird way, an achievement. You probably think I am clutching at straws, in a way I am, but let me tell you what I mean. I just wanted to go for a pizza and so I did. I made no attempt to justify it and I actually felt okay in a Pizza Hut alone.

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That said I probably need to justify it given that I only went to the gym three times last month. I have no idea what is a reasonable amount of times to go; both in terms of getting my money’s worth and for it to be effective. It is certainly more that three though.

As I write this it is 0548 on Friday. I have an early shift today but I like the quite of this time of the morning. It makes me feel relaxed and getting to do something before work is a nice feeling indeed.

I hope you have all had an amazing day. See you next time.

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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