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Consistency

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I remember once in school a difference of opinion between teachers. It was a simple thing in how to approach the start of an exercise book. One teacher said that we should leave a line between title and paragraph as that was neater. Another said that that was wasting space and there should be no skipped line.

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I was bullied in school. They used to jump on my backpack which pulled on the straps and hurt my neck. They called me names. However I remember one day, during Games, those same people were encouraging and there tacit understanding that I was trying even if I wasn’t getting results. I remember thinking, even all those years ago, that I wanted consistency.

From Season 4 Episode 21: Marge in Chains

The reality is that there are always going to be people who we don’t get along with. (We can’t have the world in the clip above) Bullying is an extreme form of this, and always unacceptable, but if some one is mean I can at least put them in a box marked mean.

This is here literally for one line!

The point is I want to know where I stand. It is the inconsistencies that I find to be a cause of irritation. Whatever the rule is I can then follow it. Inconsistency makes that impossible. It is a form of change and I struggle with change. I think on some level I always will.

I have been looking for a long time for a new job. That will be a big change when it happens and I hope that I will settle into that well. I am sure some changes are good – I’ll let you know if I find any. I still haven’t gotten over Opal Fruits and the Principality Stadium is still the Millennium Stadium as far as I am concerned.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Today (2019-10-05) I didn’t leave the flat. I am trying to decide if this is a good thing, a bad thing, or a neutral thing. It is bad from an exercise point of view that is for sure. I have taken less than 1000 steps so that is not so good – but I have got some stuff down – it is not like I have been binge watching TV.

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I resisted the temptation to have a takeaway. Instead I had some soup and garlic bread for tea. So I am still not doing well on the caloric intake. Overall though I have been productive and that is something for the win column – even if, once again, I am realising I am trying to do more stuff than I have time for.

Cannot run out of time. You are finite. Zathras is finite.

Zathras (Babylon 5: War Without End Part 2)

I know I am going round in circles having talked about this before. Which I suppose means that I am not making much headway. One thing I have done is book a holiday. It is not till next year but I am going to Amsterdam.

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I have a bucket list book which I am writing in every so often. Most of what I want to do is to travel – so it is long past time that I started to do that. I have never been abroad by myself before. The Netherlands seems like a good place to start. I can fly from Cardiff for one thing – and maybe I will go to Belgium too as it is not too far from Amsterdam.

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That is the plan for next year – and I hope to go abroad every other year at least – in theory I can afford that – money is the only barrier now.

For my day-to-day life I have no idea how to work things out. I have no idea how to balance all that I need to do with all that I want to do. All I can do is to keep trying to figure things out and battle the terrible feelings when they arise.

I hope you are well and happy and I will be back next week.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

I have a Patreon page. I hope you will consider supporting this blog: https://www.patreon.com/unstableorbit

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