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Meditation

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At time of writing (Tuesday) I have completed a 340 day streak of meditation using the Calm app. (I believe I have to say at this point that this is not sponsored.) And I am still not sure how much it is helping me. I feel that it is but I am not sure that it is.

Meditation, which might be referred to as ‘alternative’ has provable benefits. There have been studies of people meditating in MRI scanners. The machine can show that there is a difference between the ‘normal’ brain and the meditating brain.

For me I think it is more about the pausing. There are so many things to do each day: work, checking emails, catching up on You Tube, spending time with family, spending time with friends, exercise, catching up on your favourite TV shows, reading, cooking, cleaning, and whatever else – I don’t know your life. So doing nothing certainly seems like a good thing to be doing from time to time.

It is also a hard thing. I am not good at doing nothing. Even when I am doing something I am worried about doing the wrong something. So just stopping is good.

My problem is I have meditation as just another task on my list. I think maybe it should be more than that. Maybe a different approach would be better – I have no idea what that might be.

The Calm app is very nice with lots of voices and it is not just for meditation – it has soundscapes and stories to help you sleep.

Finding what is important and necessary in life is a constant struggle. While I am not sure it is of help to meditate the app also has a counter making the chain of days where you have meditated – not wanting to break that chain is also a good incentive.

Some days I may only sit for a minute other days it will be ten.

Have you tried meditation? How did you get on with it?

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Five Paragraphs

Today is Sunday and it is a strange day for me. It is the first day of my personal weekend – by work rota it is the first day of the week – and while everyone else will probably try to get to bed early tonight I wont need to worry as I am off tomorrow too.

I have been working on this post for a long time (well 40 minutes) and have been getting distracted as I am unsure what to say. It could come from being tired – it could come from being unprepared.

In someways I am starting to get a handle on my todo list. It is going down and I might all be gone by tomorrow but I still having the feeling of doing too much – or rather trying to do too much.

It has just crossed over to 1800 hours and time to resist the temptation to call for food and actually cook something. I have ingredients – I lake motivation – story of my life.

My posts have lost their way a bit recently. I am fighting every day to get my mind in order and I don’t seem to be succeeding but it is a battle I must face each and every day – there is no alternative.

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Two Things Not Connected

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This post is coming to you late because I fell asleep! I was tired this afternoon and decided to take a twenty minute nap. That ended up being a one hour and forty minute nap. As my mum might say: ‘You must have needed it.’ – I guess it just shows that I don’t get enough sleep in the week. Here I am now though to ramble at you for a few minutes. Can you ramble at someone? Is that a contradiction? I do not know. Here is a cat for no reason.

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I want to talk about two things today. They don’t have anything to do with each other; which is why this post is going to be rambley – is that a word? – it is now. I want to talk about Picard and Brexit.

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First there is Picard, the new Star Trek series, which, after two episodes, I’m still not sure about. I don’t hate it but there is something off about it and I can’t quite put my finger on what that is. It is not even a case of expectation versus reality. I am not sure what I was expecting.

Here is the trailer.

There is an old saying: ‘You can’t go home again’. Perhaps this is the problem – it is different. I think there is more to it than that and I would like to think I am not that shallow.

One of the best final episodes of any TV show ever.

I grew up on TNG and DS9. I was seven when TNG ended and six when DS9 started. Those are the shows I remember the most from the original five live action shows. DS9 is especially important to me as I was able to watch it as it came out. I remember fondly the cliffhanger from Call to Arms with the Federation Fleet filling the screen. It was so cool to see this wall of ships.

Star Trek: Picard is such a different animal to its predecessors. Star Trek has always been about the ensemble but this show is focusing on just one character. Picard is one of my favourite characters but I still see this as a problem.

Also a problem is the name of the show. The way it is structured I am not sure what else it could be called but making it just about him is a mistake.

Come on! Without my crew I’m not a commander, huh?

Jason Nesmith (Galaxy Quest)

I would have started in space with the crew assembled and told this part of the story in flashback. Perhaps calling it Star Trek: Dunkirk – that would be a good name for a ship given what was said in the opening episode.

We are two episodes in and still not in space. DS9 was, essentially, a ground based show too but we got a full cast of characters from the beginning. Then again Picard is not episodic so I should just be patient and wait to see what happens.

Final words… Picard is a good show. I am not sure it is a good Star Trek show. How it all comes together remains to be seen. I look forward to finding out. I thought about writing a review of the episodes so far but I don’t think I could do that justice. Sometimes you need to see the whole picture to know if it was worth it.

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The other thing I want to talk about is Brexit. The UK has now left the EU and I am not happy about it. I know – I know – I was in the minority when it comes to EU membership. That doesn’t mean I have to like it. There is the small matter of the leave campaign lying to the people which, for reasons I don’t understand, never mattered in the government’s plans. I am not even sure how to put all my thoughts on this subject in order.

I want to travel and have been putting it off for almost a decade. I figured one day I would meet someone and the two of us would go together. The meeting someone didn’t pan out so, next month, I am going to The Netherlands. It will be the first time I have ever travelled abroad by myself – incidentally the prospect is rather scary.

Leaving the EU won’t effect me much this time around, I will have to join the queue for non-EU counties, but as time goes on travelling may get more difficult. I hope I am wrong about that. 

Nevertheless I plan to go abroad as much as possible. There is a huge world to explore and The Netherlands seems a good place to start. I can fly from my local air port and, from what I hear, Dutch public transport is pretty good so getting about won’t be difficult. (Public transport is one of many things we need to learn about in the UK.)

It is funny thinking about Brexit. All this time and I still don’t understand. I can see no upside to leaving but leave we have. On the one hand I hope the doom and gloom proves to be false. On the other hand if this does all go belly up I, and other remainers, can laugh and say: ‘I told you so.’

Well hasn’t this been a ramble? It is funny but some weeks I don’t know what to say and other weeks I write an essay!

I hope you have a wonderful week ahead of you. See you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Concentrate

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I am sometimes bad at concentrating. There are so many things battling around my head for attention. I feel that now that I have standard days off it will help a great deal in being able to plan.

Today (Thursday) was a work day and an early shift. Tomorrow and Saturday are also early shifts so I can hit the ground running on my weekend by being up early on Sunday. (Which is today for you.) I am still struggling with the tense in these posts.

I had a bit of a wobble today of feeling profoundly sad. Feelings were going back and forth in my brain. They were feelings of loneliness and uselessness. At least having to work distracted me – the jury is still out on if that is a good or a bad thing.

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It is Sunday (1746) and the getting up early plan didn’t go over so well. Forcing myself to go to bed is something that never happens. Still I have had a productive day. I have been working on writing and am back to enjoying the process. I wish I didn’t feel apologetic for relaxing but I always do. I am off tomorrow too. Two days off together is invaluable. It is so much easier to get more done. Now if I could just figure out how to relax…

It is late again and I am tired again but I am not going to bed just yet. Even for me this would be too early. I am just going to sit and type, listen to music, and yawn every few seconds. Sounds like a fun evening doesn’t it?

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Sunrise

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To the best of my recollection I have never seen a sunrise. Isn’t it supposed to be one of the most amazing sighs a person can see? And of course seeing it on a screen doesn’t count. This was in my mind just now as I thought about what to write here for this post. Today is the start of a new regime for me. I am no longer working Sundays – from now on Sunday and Monday will be my weekend and I am very hopeful that having the two days together each week will offset the disadvantages of working each Saturday.

It sometimes seems to me that life is a struggle to find the right way of doing things and perhaps a struggle that will never be won. I am constantly trying to figure life out. And each new plan creates a different problem! It is exhausting to keep trying but there is no choice but to continue. I have maintained this blog for a long time now. I am happy with that. And I wish the struggle would end so I could figure out my organisational skills.

In about an hour from typing this word I am going out to see family. It will be a nice day and a walk in the park which should help me to get out of my head – it is what I need as I am a bit restless at the moment – odd since I didn’t get enough sleep last night! I leave you with the hope that you are doing well and I will see you next time.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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And so it is 2020…

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January always feels like a strange month to me. The year builds up to December. It feels like climbing a mountain. Then on new year’s eve we look back at the year gone and the year to come – the mountain behind and the mountain ahead – so to speak.

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We might look back at what we achieved. We might be disappointed at what we didn’t achieve. However the end of the year comes no matter what and we reach midnight.

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So we dive off of one year and land before another year. Things feel possible again. If we didn’t get down to goal weight, exercise, read, write,or whatever enough maybe we will in the year before us. And all of this because the Earth has passed an arbitrary point in space.

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January is the start of the climb to the summit of a new year. A new story which we all hope will be better than the one before. I won’t share at this point my hopes for the new year as I am still trying to get my thoughts together on that. Well except for the obvious desires of happiness and health. For me they are both rather illusive things. I hope that you are happy and healthy in the coming year. I hope that this is the year your dreams come true.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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The Year is 2020 – almost.

Why this came to mind I don’t know – could be the election – could be that we are all about to die in fire when global warming kills us all!

This will be the last post of the year and I feel I need to get my thoughts together as I do every year. The problem is that my thoughts are always a bit of jumble.

“Your thoughts…. Plural?”

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I feel trapped in the act of balancing all the facets of life. I am not sure how to leave the trap – not unless you know how to make the day about three hours longer…

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I saw a video the other day that talked about the importance of sleep.

…okay only saw a clip before this starts out in a weird place.

I do not get enough sleep. Some nights it is as little as four hours. I didn’t realise quite how bad it was until seeing this video – is it wrong that that is my new year’s resolution? Because after watching this I think what I want from next year is 2928 hours of sleep! That sounds like a significant investment of time.

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Speaking of time – I also need to go to the gym. That is another battle too – oddly these are the same battles as I mentioned last year! It is good to know nothing is ever learned! I have been to the gym sporadically over the past year and really haven’t got my money’s worth. I would say I need a plan but plans haven’t been working out so well for me – maybe it wasn’t cunning enough.

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

I have a Patreon page. I hope you will consider supporting this blog: https://www.patreon.com/unstableorbit

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