Christmas 2018

I feel, almost, compelled to write bah humbug here. There is something about Christmas that is so weird don’t you think?

I am not a Christian so, for me, this isn’t about religion. For me Christmas is about spending time with family, good food, and the giving and receiving of presents. Those are all good things so why then the bah humbug?

…because it sometimes seems like you can’t enjoy Christmas your way. I am guilty of that too. I would find it weird to hear that someone was having a lasagne on Christmas day. If you like lasagne then why the hell not?

Someone asked if I was having a Christmas tree and the answer is no. They seemed to find that strange. Firstly my flat is tiny so the tree would have to be up all year, and secondly I am not going to be in the flat on Christmas Day anyway

While I like the Christmas songs shown here the music every year is the same songs. And if you are shopping, or work in retail, you will here songs like Rocking around the Christmas Tree so many times it makes you want to say: ‘I’ll tell you anything you want just please make it stop.’

The songs are also so jolly. Can’t I just have a regular level of happiness? In my case it is more like a regular level of okness.

I protest I am not a merry man.

Worf (TNG: Qpid)

There is also the problem of talking about the new year. It is always done so with the expectation of hope but we know it will be largely the same. There will be good and bad in the new year just like every other year.

I do not say all his to be down on Christmas. I wish we could do what is said in so many songs. Stop war and really make the new year fundamentally different to the years that have gone before.

I am rambling here. I think it is because in spite of what I have said in the last two posts I do feel like I am on the verge of a new beginning.

Next year I want to find a new job. I want to finish many stories. I want to continue to post here. It may be that the earth is soon to pass an arbitrary point in space but still there is the feeling of an end. And on Sunday 22nd December 2019 – I want to be able to tell you all some amazing things.

Whatever you have planned for the 25th I hope you have an amazing day. This has been a rather morose post as my mind is working through some stuff in the background. My next post will be the last one of the year. Thank you so much for reading.

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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