The thoughts are swimming around in my head. They are lost and confused and I can’t even bring them to words. Both my hands are on this keyboard and as I type I do not know what will come next. As I type and you read we both know as much of what is to come as each other.
It is Sunday today which is my day off. I did go for a walk earlier but I am not going to meet my step target today. I feel tired. I always seem to be tired.
It must come from my choices of eating. I eat… poorly.
Every time I think of that word I think of the knight who says it in The Last Crusade.
I need to cut down on the bad foods. The bad foods are so nice. The best solution is to remove the temptation. Don’t even bring the chocolate into the house – you can’t eat what is not there to eat.
I don’t ever seem to stick to my calorie count. Rather than it being a way to eat less it is just showing me how badly I do eat.
I have not moved house yet. I am still waiting to hear about it. I want to move. Now that I have that possibility the house feels smaller with each passing day – not helped by the fact that I started to bag up some of my things.
I am clutching at straws here. I want to write words for you. The words that pop into my mind and just keep going till I have something. Anything.
Diet and lifestyle is such a balance. Food intake. What food. Exercise. Sleep. These things are all of great importance and are so easy to get wrong. What is right, and what is wrong, can change depending on the article and who has written it.
Today is not the best of days for me. It is not the worst either. I write for me today. I just want to get words out on a page. I want to say that I am feeling out of sorts and that I do not know why. I want to say that I am here – and for today that will have to be enough. In closing I want to share this with you – because music is wonderful.
I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.
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