In the TV show Babylon 5 we see the conflict between the Vorlons and the Shadows. It is an ideological conflict between order and chaos. It has been pointed out to me that I seem to have qualities of both of those extremes.
“It’s like knocking over an ant-hill. Every new generation gets stronger, the ant-hill gets redesigned, made better.”Mr Morden (Babylon 5: Z’ha’dum)
I control my life through lists and timers and so I have order. I also have order to the exclusion of common sense. I frequently have a chaotic flat because this order has lead to being tied to my list. I might need to do some laundry but that might not have come up on the to-do list for today.
“The Vorlons are like your parents, I suppose. They want you to play nice, clean your room, do it by the rules. I guess you could call them Lords of Order.”Justin (Babylon 5: Z’ha;dum)
Currently my flat is in perfect order because I had help with it. My parents were here today (Thursday) helping me to sort out nearly 32 years worth of collected rubbish. I must admit to some trepidation before we started both because of not having control and the feeling that I should not need help.
Sometimes the most adult thing you can do is ask for help.Rupert Giles (Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Grave)
The plan now is to find the right balance. I think we all need a little chaos in our lives, perhaps I should say spontaneity, but I think we need order too. I have struggled with this for a very long time. I feel so much better about my flat now than I did before. The trick will be keeping it in order, getting other areas of my life in order, while also allowing time for occasional unpredictably.
I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.
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