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Do Less to do More

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I had a week off a few weeks back. I had leave to take rather than going anywhere. I really should have gone somewhere – that is a different story of me having the planning capabilities of a gnat. Instead I was following my ridiculously detailed to-do list. I made a useful discovery though. I am trying to do more things than I have time for. In short my list would only work if the days were longer than 24 hours. I am moving to Bajor!

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I have spoken many times about my attachment to my to-do list, my attempt to get things done, my feeling of never doing enough, and in general managing to stress out about stuff that only I care about. I discovered I was trying to do over twenty hours – a struggle on a week off – impossible on a normal week. Well maybe not impossible but you are forgetting my proclivity for procrastination – so much procrastination. Perhaps a more accurate statement would be that I suck at prioritising.

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I didn’t just ineffectively follow my list. I say ineffectively because I never did get the feeling of a good thing done. What was the other thing I was doing? Binge watching Bones. That counts as productive, right? Right?

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In other thoughts… These blog posts are always written over several sessions. It takes a while and doing otherwise might mean I didn’t do something else – things like meditation, my diary, and Duolingo. The apps I use keep track of progress and therefore I don’t want to miss a day. The problem is the ebb and flow of my metal state.

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I may start a post on a bad day and thus the post is morose and unhappy. Then I come back to it on a good day and suddenly the hopelessness previously shown makes no sense. Meaning it is difficult to pick up where I left off.

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It is like playing with Lego as a child. Perhaps you are building a space rocket and then mum tells you to go to bed before it is finished. When you wake up the next day you want to make a submarine. So you take apart the rocket but bed time happens before the sub is finished and the cycle goes on and on.

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At the moment I am okay. I am not feeling the hopelessness I sometimes feel it is more of a resigned feeling. More Puddleglum – less Marvin the paranoid android. Are those two characters too similar for this example to work?

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Here is a picture of a lion because Puddleglum is a character from the Chronicles of Narnia – and Pexels didn’t have a wardrobe in their collection.

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And here is a beach because I like beaches and walking along one on holiday always has a calming effect. Whoever you are reading this now – thank you and I hope you are doing well.

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And happy Star Wars day for yesterday.

I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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The Ramble of a Confused Man

Have you ever felt like this when Googling symptoms?

The internet is a wonderful thing in many ways but it can also cause many issues. One of them is the problem of Googling to find out what is wrong with you.

Rachel: I don’t know! I think it’s kind of serious! Oh, you know… I was watching this thing on TV this morning about… Newcastle disease… and I think I might have it!!
Charlie: Oh, Newcastle disease is a secretion borne virus that only affects chickens and… other poultry.

The One with the Soap Opera Party (Friends)

A person could spend half an hour googling and discover they have a disease thought to have been extinct, an appendix about to explode, and that they are pregnant. Which is especially concerning if they have already had their appendix removed and are male. The reality turns out to be that they drank too much alcohol and not enough water the night before.

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I had an idea for a science fiction story once. It was a world where doctors could simulate the patient’s condition in themselves. My reasoning behind this was that in doing so the doctor might be better able to prescribe the right medicine. After all we all conceptualise the universe differently. Even in a family you might disagree on if something is red or orange. When we used to play Uno with my grandmother she couldn’t see the difference between the green and the blue. More than that though mightn’t it be tricky to know what is a problem? The human body is going to hurt sometimes and we all have different pain tolerances. If a patient says the have pain in their arm there is really no way to know if that is something that will pass or indicative of something else.

Flanders and Swann (The Elephant)

In Star Trek they have the tricorder. I wish this thing existed in reality. I am not like the elephant in this song but it would still be great to have a doctor wave a device over me and know about all that was wrong mentally and physically – and how serious it all was? That technology is, at the moment, indistinguishable from magic as Clarke would say.

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Sometimes googling symptoms might yield results. I think it can be a good first step but certainly not the last step. Until such time as we have magical scanning devices we just have to get by with how we feel and decided if we need further help.

I wanted to write this because I know there is something not quite right in my mind. I feel strange a lot of the time. I get upset over small things, I get stressed in situations that others can cope, I am slow where others are fast, I struggle where others do not. And none of this is to get sympathy, that is not what this is about, it is about the human condition.

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Fear and anxiety are the easiest emotion I can think of to explain what I an ineptly reaching for. Spiders don’t bother me at all. If I see one in my flat the most I would do is say: ‘Hi, Bert.’ Some people are terrified of them and it doesn’t matter if they know they are harmless. For myself I have difficulty with plans. When I go to work in the morning I will have an idea in my head of what I am doing that evening, even if it is just watching Netflix, and for me it is not such an easy choice if I am invited to the cinema after work – because I had plans.

That is the thing I really want to say from this rambling post. I think we all need to understand what others find difficult. I want to put an example here but I don’t want to offend or embarrass anyone. Some of my issues are weird even to me. Like feeling I shouldn’t have spent so much time on this post. Why? Because it wasn’t on the plan for today.

Maybe this post is too rambling. Maybe it doesn’t make all that much sense and it is just a bunch of words not in a good order. I don’t know. Sometimes things demand to be written. I needed to write it though and try, even if it only makes sense to me, to get somethings out of my brain and on to screen.

In closing I would just like to say I hope you are doing well with whatever fears and difficulties you are facing. And I am going to prove I leaned nothing from studying creative writing by ending on a cliche – ‘You’ve got this.’ Good luck to you, dear reader. Good luck too all of us.

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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February

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February ended three days ago. It already feels to me like this year is going quickly. They say that that is a common phenomenon as you get older. It has to do with a year and how it relates to a percentage of life. Which is why as children those 24 days of December always felt so long.

I made a quiet resolution to myself at the beginning of the year to try and do something significant every month – or to be more accurate 12 somethings over the course of a year. So far I can’t say that I have done that. I have switched back to using a note book and really using it and I think that that is going to help. Apps are not so good, in my opinion with helping with productivity. Too many times I find I need a feature it just doesn’t have – pen and paper can do it all.

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I did have pizza the other day. That is, in a weird way, an achievement. You probably think I am clutching at straws, in a way I am, but let me tell you what I mean. I just wanted to go for a pizza and so I did. I made no attempt to justify it and I actually felt okay in a Pizza Hut alone.

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That said I probably need to justify it given that I only went to the gym three times last month. I have no idea what is a reasonable amount of times to go; both in terms of getting my money’s worth and for it to be effective. It is certainly more that three though.

As I write this it is 0548 on Friday. I have an early shift today but I like the quite of this time of the morning. It makes me feel relaxed and getting to do something before work is a nice feeling indeed.

I hope you have all had an amazing day. See you next time.

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.  

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Last Minute Blog Post is Last Minute.

I made it to the gym yesterday that is only the second time in February. If I could reliably go to the gym as often as I could reliably eat food that was bad for me I would look amazing – okay that i an exaggeration I still have a lot of limitations to work with.

I went to the gym at almost the last minute. In so far that I left about fifteen minutes before they closed. Yes. My gym actually closes. In this day and age that is unusual. To say I enjoy going to the gym would be an exaggeration but I did not not enjoy it. It was relatively quiet – which is more than I can say for the streets.

There was a rugby match on in Cardiff yesterday. My interest in rugby doesn’t extend beyond wanting to know if Wales won. So I had no idea that I was leaving my home at a time when I would encounter so many people – so I had to navigate around them.

I don’t like crowds. I have never liked them and when I am in a crowd situation I always feel uneasy. It might have something to do with the fact that the people in the crowd are often are often drunk and rowdy – or it might be that I am short and I feel like I am unnoticed and unimportant. That is why Napoleon did what he did – well actually not but history is written by the victors! I leaned that from a Klingon! Churchill may have said it too.

Some times on my weekend off I think of going out to a club. Which is crazy for me but I do. I think the idea comes from a desperate attempt to meet someone. The truth is though I have only enjoyed a club once. That was because of some special company. In all other instances I am an introvert – so meeting someone is a problem.

After the gym I had a kebab (which kind of renders the gym moot but let’s leave that alone) and ate it while watching The Man with the Golden Gun and washed down with some cider. And that was quite an enjoyable evening. Being alone is nice but I would like to be alone with someone. That may or may not be a contradiction.

I can’t say the same for today. I went to bed late and got up late. I was feeling discombobulated this morning. The only good thing about that is that I get to use the word discombobulated. It took me a while to get going and I had to tell my brain to shut up a few times.

I do have an almost Homer Simpson like relationship with my brain as he does with his. It is nearly 1500 now and I am sitting in Starbucks to type this. I am feeing a bit more myself. There is still plenty I want to do today so I better snap to it. I hope that you all have had a most amazing day.

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Time

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We all know the phrase: ‘Not enough hours in the day.’ I feel like that a lot of the time. And time management is one of the biggest challenges I think we face day-to-day.

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They also say: ‘When life gives you lemons…’ The lemons I have is not having written this before this morning. You are reading this sometime after 1800 hours on 2019-02-10 and I am writing it at 0947 on that day.

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I was once asked at a job interview what my greatest weakness was – and the answer to that question is being a slave to the plan. I am not good with spontaneity in any area. I will sometimes have this thought: ‘I really want to do some writing today but it hasn’t come up on the plan.’ So yes I will follow a plan even if it is proven to have holes in it.

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The plan does include randomisation. Every day I do house work, reading, meditation, Duolingo, and write Morning Pages. I change the order everyday because for some of those tasks there is no end.

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I can’t, for example, sit and finish an entire book in one sitting. So randomisation coupled with a timer is the only way I know to define an end. Sometimes I will read for half an hour and other times it might only be a few pages. Some days I will meditate for 13 minutes and others it might only be 3.

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Then there is the blog and a slew of other tasks I set myself. Some are quick and some take a long time. I have come to realise that I will never completely figure out managing my time. It is a challenge especially considering the weird place that is my brain with its contradictions and its fixation on patterns and doing things the established way – even if that way isn’t completely satisfactory. How do you deal with these challenges?

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors. 

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2019 Two Weeks to Go

Don’t Panic

The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Also Corporal Jones (Dad’s Army)) 

Today, as I write this, my mind is in a complete jumble. I get like this from time-to-time and it is a difficult to put the feeling into words. 

This picture is a good representation of how it feels sometimes. My mind is starting to calm down but earlier it was like there was this fog of thoughts. And I can’t even completely put into words what I was thinking about. 

Thinking about what you can’t control only wastes energy and creates its own enemy.

Lieutenant Worf (TNG: Coming of Age) 

Yesterday (Monday) I did some Christmas shopping. Naturally it was very busy indeed. I do not like crowds. I have to put in extra mental energy just to walk as I find my way through.

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Shopping offline is a nice thing to do at Christmas time but sometimes I like the idea of just ordering from Amazon. (Other enormous companies are available.) There are no crowds and it is just easier.

I haven’t been sleeping too well lately – or maybe I just haven’t been sleeping for long enough. Despite what I said last time this upcoming new year does feel like a place for a new beginning and I know that that is an illusion. 

Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so. 

Douglas Adams (The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy)

What am I going to do? I don’t know.

One thing I have achieved is a meditation streak of 241 days. I would like to think that that has helped me but I am not sure. The jumbled feeling in my brain is still there. 

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This post is my way of working through some stuff and it has not been entirely successful. It is now Friday for me. I have some time off over Christmas and maybe that will give me the opportunity to work things out. I at least want to reach the point where, at the end of a given day, I feel happy about what has been achieved rather than annoyed and what hasn’t. For today writing this post has been an achievement. 

Sometimes the most adult thing you can do is ask for help when you need it.

Rupert Giles (Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Seeing Red) 

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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Productivity and Tally Marks

check-class-desk-7103 When it comes to simple pleasures there are few things better than the pleasure of crossing something off your to-do list.

In my case I use tally marks. This is good because without them my to-do list would have lots of repeats. The down side is if I ever need to use my arm, if I misplace my note book, it could be quite a scary thing. (Let those who know tell those that don’t – or just Google The Silence)

Having a relaxed to-list, with no dates just tasks, has been good. I have given myself ‘permission’ to do what I want. I bet you can guess what isn’t getting marks next to it…  pexels-photo-136409

Yep it’s exercise – funny how that works out. I’ll get to it eventually. Sorry what’s that sound…

Oink, flap, oink, flap, oink, flap…

Anyway at the moment I am waiting in for a delivery of tea. I hate waiting for deliveries. Firstly I don’t know when it will arrive and the intercom will make me jump. And secondly I can’t play music as I might miss the intercom. Nice tea is essential – even if I am using tea bags which I know a connoisseur would have a problem with – anyway I digress.

pexels-photo-247899I’m also reading a book on productivity – or rather decluttering one’s life which gives more time and so you can be more productive. The book is called The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F**K And that isn’t me censoring myself there are literal astrixes on the cover.

I’ve almost finished the book and it has been quite interesting. The crux of it is learning to say ‘No’. I’m sure we’ve all struggled with that. Have you ever gone along with something just because we felt an obligation? Why is it so hard to say the sentence: ‘I’m not a fan of Tupperware and would rather have dental surgery than spend an evening talking about it.’ – or perhaps kinder words than that.

I would say however the book is rather thin. The central ideas can be summed up very quickly – if you are interested I would recommend getting it from a library. I bought it and two followups from an actual shop. Which is a very weird thing to do in this day and age – and perhaps shows the problem with an impulse buy.

I hope that wherever projects you have going on are going well and that your weekend has been a lovely one.

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I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.

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