It is funny, and also sad, how a birthday changes as you get older. When you’re young it is exciting. It might mean going to bed later. It might mean being allowed to do something new – either from a legal perspective or because your parents now deem you old enough. However there comes a point where a birthday is just another day.
I am starting writing this on the 14th – my birthday is the 17th and the day has just crept up on me. At one time I would have been so excited now I am kind of meh about it. It is sad.
I have spoken before about feelings of sadness and depression and I think that on my birthday is when it really comes in to focus. My birthday is a milestone I am 32 now (it is now the 17th) and it can be a sign that another ship has joined the fleet of missed opportunities. That is how it feels sometimes at least. I am not in a relationship and I am still figuring myself out. And sometimes I think I always will be.
Lately I have been thinking of fundamental changes I could make to my living situation. I live in a studio flat and at times it feels like not enough space. I have come to realise that it is not the amount of space but how it utilised. I am renting and the flat came with a bulky bed with little storage – one of those that lifts up would be far better.
I have been watching a lot of videos of these tiny homes. I say tiny but this place is better than where I live. The clever use of space is wonderful there is so much you can do if you have control. We are heading into a new year and living in a place like this lovely house would be amazing.
There are only two things you need for a tiny house – money and a place to put it. The first one should be doable, even a loan could be paid off in five years and be no more than rent over those five years, the problem is the second one.
The world hasn’t really woken up to the idea of tiny homes yet. This seems a little silly. There is often talk of it being impossible to own your own home in the current economy and a tiny home can make that possible. Land could be set aside in cities for such constriction. Wouldn’t it be nice to see a street of these little houses each one unique? And that is not even getting into what it could do for homeless people.
The number one house in this video costs $5000. It would be so cheap, on a governmental scale, to provide a home for all the homeless in the UK. Brexit has cost so much money just think of what that could have done to help the homeless and others in great need.
It is now the 22nd of September – yes it has taken a long time to write this. Yesterday I was out with my family. We had a beautiful sunny day and went to Margam Park. I hadn’t been to the park in a long time and it was wonderful to walk in the sunshine. I got a Lego set and some money from my parents and a book and some money from my brother.
Today I am okay and sometimes that is all that can be said. It is early still as I finish this and then on to the next task. Today is a good day. My feelings are often problematic as I know that deep sadness will return but that is tomorrow.
Oh and I picked up my repaired phone – they did a great job.
I just wanted to say that I have checked this post. I really have. Unfortunately my particular combination of dyslexia and dyspraxia makes it really hard for me to spot typos. Please enjoy and I’ll try not to make too many errors.
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